Featured in Lungs, Checking my Bad Attitude

First off,  the good stuff!

I am featured in Lungs 2016. Lungs is a contemporary art publication featuring the work of emerging artists in the North East, UK. Lungs project is developed by Angela Wingate, Marta Rubinato and Rebecca Burdon. It is filled with much talent and I am happy to be included! It is lush and can be ordered here for £5 while copies last: http://lungsproject.bigcartel.com/.

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I also finished some more ‘Death Out and About’ mini canvases. I will be listing these soon on my Etsy site for £10 each! https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/robotladypowerart

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So today I was aware of my bad attitude, my stinking thinking and the need to adjust my attitude asap. I am mentioning this because I bet a lot of people struggle with this-not just me. Here are some of the negative thoughts I’ve been thinking:

  1. Why bother making more artwork? It just sits here at home because I am incapable of selling it, marketing my work and finding other places for it. What’s the point?
  2. What is wrong with me? I’m nearly 46 with 2 master’s degrees and yet barely make above minimum wage. Maybe high school was the high point of my success, how sad is that? I’m tired.
  3. I am in a rut here in the UK- maybe I won’t be able to make it here after all. Then again, I am still waiting to here about my visa renewal, so the home office might kick me out anyways, for being such a loser.

OK, you get the point, I’ll stop there.

Here is my higher self-adjusting my attitude.

  1. The point is that you’re an artist and must keep making art. You do work on marketing your work the best you can and will improve in time. Most of your art is unstretched lately, so don’t worry about the space, they can be rolled up and stored easily.
  2. You are not a loser and have had so much good fortune in your life, including parents who have generously helped you get an education and supported you many times. Lots of people struggle with finding the right work and you are tenacious. You actually really enjoy your job as a learning support assistant at the art college the staff and students are great.  2.8 billion people on the planet live on less that $2.00 per day and I have plenty of food and clean water, so I’m doing good. You have so much to be grateful for, so don’t give up and stop feeling sorry for yourself.
  3. It might seem like you are in a rut, but this is an illusion. You are lucky to be here and have managed many challenges to get here. Home Office is gonna show you the love. The people you’ve met here and who have supported for your art have been a huge improvement from the isolation found in Florida. Stop being so hard on yourself.

Can anyone relate?

All my love, ML

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Rough Week as a Demented Sea Lion

It’s been a rough week and I’m sure my hormonal cycle didn’t help. Our beloved cat Parmocita had acute renal failure. I’m happy to say she is on the mend after spending days at the vets getting a drip where they filled her with fluids and flushed out her kidneys. Mental health wise, I found it hard not to despair. She’s eating again and her old behaviours are back (stealing seats, stealing my leg space as she sleeps with us at night, and glaring at me for treats, which I’m not allowed to give her at the moment).

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The other stressor is that it’s time to apply for a spousal visa renewal- yes, 2.5 years have already flown by. I’ve been working on it for a while, I do not procrastinate with this. Unfortunately, I am not an immigration solicitor or a financial genius. Being either of these two would have helped immensely. I just bumble my way through and try to jump through all the hoops like a demented sea lion, praying I have all the evidence and documentation that I need.

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So the artwork has definitely taken a back burner, though I’m in the studio today. This week I returned back to my day job as a learning support assistant at the fabulous Cleveland College of Art and Design. I did some drawing alongside the students and thoroughly enjoyed the tutors’ approach. Here are some examples.

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Yesterday, I listened to a webinar by Brainard Carey called ‘Patrons and Sponsors for Artists’. It was very interesting and gave me some hope about getting some patrons in the future. I like the idea. It also introduced me to Patreon, which is a crowdfunding site for artists and creators- check it out at https://www.patreon.com/.

I know it is September 11th today and a reminder of that tragic day many years ago- and yet the endless war continues- some done by ‘evil doers’ some done by so called democratic nations in the guise of ‘liberation’ and ‘freedom’. I am deeply saddened by these world events and struggle to find meaning and hope. Sending my love to all the peace loving people in the world affected by war- especially to all the displaced peoples and those living smack dab in the middle. I wish I could do more and I wish my vote could count for peace and justice instead of more glorification and continuation of the war machine. I’ve never been a big flag waver and feel free to defriend me on Facebook if this offends you.

All of my love, ML